Renewed dedication

Renewed dedication:

Is the name of the game for the remainder of the year.

We have begun our WW regime again, and will continue to hold ourselves accountable till the end of the year. We are hoping to lose 20 lbs each.

Brian will lose his weight in no time, all he has to do is say WW and the weight comes right off. I have faithfully been on WW for a week now and I have lost 3.2 lbs, so far so good.

I will not fail. My gift to myself is losing the first 14.4 lbs by Xmas. This is really all want for the Holiday. Brian has asked me numerous times what I want for our Anniversary, I tell him all I want is his love and commitment to not let me fail. He has pledged to do all he can, and I know he will. Besides I think he forgot he already got my anniversary gift. He bought me a beautiful watch in Disney World while on vacation in August. I however, have no idea where it is hidden. If I get something else, I will politely ask "Where is the watch from Disney?" Than I'm sure he will have to remember where he hid it, it should make for an interesting dinner. We are going back to the restaurant where we were married. This time I want to enjoy the dinner, I was so nervous the last time. I do remember they had really good garlic bread and fresh brick oven pizza. We will be dining on fresh salads and seafood, as it is better for you, and lower in carbs.

Brian the Love of my life,

gave me a piece of paper on my way out the door tonight

and told me to read it when I got to work. Well, I barely made it to work and in the door when I had to know what it was. It was a beautiful handwritten letter from him telling

me his thoughts and ideas about our future together. He asked my opinion about his job, whether to stay in his current appointed position as an investigator or return back to "walking the block". I told him in a handwritten note back that I would love, respect and be proud of him no matter what he chose to do. I having personally worked the block, and I know what it entails, and what is expected, I know the risks and the miserable surroundings that come with the position. I also know that he has not been happy one day, that he has been an investigator. He has hated it more than life itself. There are days he doesn't want to get out of bed because as he puts it" The unit is like the Titanic, the ship is taking on water and we are all going down with it." His boss is not a leader, rather a man who was put in the position because no one else wanted it, so he feels that he is king, I guess this makes up for not being the king at home. His girlfriend will call on one line and his wife will call at the same time on a different line and tells the guys in the unit to cover for him till he can pick it up.

Nice huh? Actually he is a piece of &hit!!!

Ahh sometimes I really hate his job, and I hate the person he becomes while stressed out about his job. I have always told him he has managed to leave the job behind (for 10 years he had rarely brought the job home), but lately he has been bringing it home often, and I hate the negative person he has become while in investigations.

I personally would support his decision to go back on line and bid a 7x3 shift with Monday/Tuesday's off, this would be ideal for us, but it's his decision and I support him 100%.